Apparently there’s another “troll the mogai blog” thread going around. If you’ve been getting a ton of asks today asking for help with understanding their identity, then this is most likely why as that’s what has been happening to us.
I’ve had to block multiple people (which I really hate doing personally, but trolls irk me more than hate messages) and I’ll be cleaning the inbox out soon.
So if you’ve sent an ask recently and it isn’t answered, you may have to resend. I just don’t have enough time in my day to cater to trolls who don’t actually want any help.
-Fy
I plan to go more in depth with this in a video, but let me just say that trolls put people at risk of harm.They can lie to get information about you and then use that to hurt you. It can tear apart ANY community and is really shitty. And to be honest, I’d rather deal with hate messages, suicide baiting, and threats than a troll. Read more for a bit of a semi personal vent and shit.
-Admin Kyle
Trolls have been raiding a lot of the servers I’m in recently and it’s wearing down my mental health. I already am losing tons of IRL support and because of this, I become really distrustful of everyone else. I am terrified to say anything anymore. I fear what I post on any platform because of trolls. I’m to a point I’m constantly suicidal. When I first started this blog, it was easy to manage. Hell, even the hate is easy enough to manage. But the trolls have been wearing me down to a point where I can barely function and get constantly paranoid. I can’t sleep, eat, or even leave my room, I get so paranoid that a troll will out my personal information to family (which leads to beatings and yelling). Literally, the only thing that keeps me going is MOGAI is a special interest and everyone’s kind messages. Each day is a fucking battle to keep my sanity. So please, this is my plead to trolls to stop. You may think the MOGAI community does harm, but your trolling, no matter how “harmless” it is, hurts a lot more than you can imagine.
Okay, took much longer than expected, but everything is open again and the blog got an overhaul of updates to the mod pages, rules, and themes (both mobile and desktop), adding a trigger warning system and faq, and removing the mobile carrds. In place of the carrds, we will have #pages (which will be posted tonight) and updated with the blog!
Update (note, this is going to be very heavy hearted, but it is serious)
So I thought about recording and posting this to YouTube when I got home, but with how fast my mental health has declined, I am seriously not sure how much longer I can go on for.
Close friends know this, but I’ve been extremely suicidal and depressed the last few weeks, mainly due to stress. I’ve been starving myself again, lost most sleep (4 hours in the last 6 days), and have been starting to get aggressive in person.
My mental health has taken a sharp decline, my grades have slipped, my (albeit abusive) mother (and only caretaker) is dying of cancer, my fiance has been kicked out and I am (for the most part) banned from hanging out with him (due to my mom saying he’s and financial burden despite him offering to pay for things around the house), I’ve been dealing with drama from my ex qpp and an old friend, I’ve developed serious migraines that have been causing me to faint, been in and out of hospitals, found out I have inherited a deadly and cancerous disease that is incurable, found out my dad plans to disown me and move away when I turn 18 due to me being transmasc, I lost a lot of my friends, found out I am going to have to sign up for an SMI disability (which means I can’t vote, work, or even transition), struggling with chronic back pain, dealing with constant anxiety of bed bugs returning to my apartment, ptsd related issues, and a whole bunch of other issues.
I’m stressed to all brim, my school does jack shit to help (they actually gave me in school suspension for being stressed), and I have to bottle my emotions or else my abusive family yells at me for being weak. I feel so alone in life and the only thing keeping me alive anymore is the fact that I’m too lazy to actually go through with killing myself. I do have therapy, but it’s only every now and then and I can’t go into a mental hospital since I’m set to graduate soon.
I don’t want to leave this blog behind because this means a lot to me. I only say this here in the case I do go through and kill myself or end up in a hospital because I feel like it’s only getting worse and worse.
I also do have a queue running for a few days so there’s that.
I hope everyone has a good day, but I promise you all that I will try and get help.
UncommonGenders 